#reverb12 Day 12: Your most intense emotions?
I bubble with emotion. Some call me the human barometer. They can look at me and tell what the mood of a room or office is. It’s difficult for me to be around a lot of people for an extended period of time. I feel everyone’s emotions. And that energy is sometimes just too overwhelming for my system. It wears me out.
I think this is why it is difficult for me to be around super dominant personalities. My father is very domineering and takes up a huge amount of “space” – by that I mean energy. I had a few friends I had to sever ties with because they were very similar to my father in that regard. Their presence was too overpowering, too imposing and disturbing to my soul and spirit. They are tremendous energy suckers.
I’m learning the older I get, that life is too short to feel like the marrow is being sucked from my bones. I’m learning to surround myself with people who are positive in energy and reciprocal in that respect.
One of my favorite quotes is by the great Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor. I’ve mentioned her on here before. She wrote, “My Stroke of Insight” which is about her journey through a severe stroke and learning how to function – to walk, talk, read – all over again. One of the things she mentioned resonates with me to this day and I try to remember and practice it at all times,
“Please take responsibility for the energy you bring into this space.” ~Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor.
That is something we need to and should be aware of constantly. We carry energy with us everywhere we go. It emanates from us and fills the space around us. We DO impact others whether we say anything or not. It is in the way we carry ourselves, the way we speak to others and the very looks on our face. We choose what energy we want to give off from day to day. And like ripples on the water, we radiate and project that energy.
It’s good to feel. It means we are alive. I’ll take that any day over being bland, unfeeling and apathetic about the world around me. How boring it must be for those who don’t allow themselves to feel – who block it to such an extent that they are numb, who look at only the negative and allow that to be their view of life. I feel sorry for them. It’s no way to live.
There’s so much around us. There is SO much good in this world! SO much beauty! Yes, there is bad, I’m not denying that. But I would much rather focus on the positive. I would much rather devote my energy to making things better. I would rather laugh and sing and dance and be silly and make others laugh.
I want to be responsible for creating ripples of laughter and waves of joy in this room we call life. 🙂
*I’m participating in this year’s December prompts series that began as Reverb and has branched out into several other incarnations of the project. It is a way to close out the year by reflecting on that which we are leaving behind and looking ahead to the possibilities in front of us. I hope you’ll join us as we strengthen old friendships and make brand spanking new ones.