The Need for Long Term Focus…

It’s funny how some days I write with abandon in my journal – thoughts pouring, gushing out faster than I can commit them to paper. Then there are days where I don’t write a single thing. It’s the same for my poetry. Some times it just doesn’t stop. It keeps coming and I have to be at the ready to catch it as the words drop out of the air to me. This year has not been a good year for me poetry-wise. Perhaps I’m not channeling to the right frequency. I don’t know. I miss it. Part of me knows it really has more to do with quieting my mind and opening myself to the muses. Maybe I just haven’t been allowing myself that.

My writing scares me at times. I do shy away from it and I know that isn’t a good thing. I know I’ve written about this before. I let life get in the way – constantly. Stuff that comes easy to me like writing press releases, media alerts, speeches, newsletters – all that is effortless for me. It’s the longer forms of writing – actual story writing and world building I think I suck at. I keep coming back to the word “focus.” I lack focus – long-term focus.

Well, I do feel like I made a step in the right direction this week. I rejoined my former writing group, Dreaming In Ink. I’ve missed them. And I do know that since I quit, something has been missing from my life. I sort of fell down a deep well of darkness – creatively. Things haven’t been the same.

And with NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) just around the corner, maybe I can sit down and force myself to focus. I did it in 2008 and got my 50,000 words in. I know I can do it. I just need to keep doing it! We shall see.

Happy Weekend! πŸ™‚

0 thoughts on “The Need for Long Term Focus…

  1. Focusing on the optimism here, and cheering you on with your writing. I know that November is a huge boost to so many people. You probably don’t suck as much at worldbuliding and etc as you think! I’ll bet you’re harder on your own work than a good crit partner would be… so it’s a good thing you rejoined your group.


    Seriously, though, I can write 1000 word blog posts all day, but if you’re like, “Matt, I need 5000 words on this!” I’m like, “NOOOOOOOOOOO!”

    I need to work on it, too, and if you know the secret to overcoming ADD, you better tell me because…

    Hey, I like the new layout, by the way. It’s leafy!

    • We should! We should! But we can’t talk about it! Right? My mind flits here and there and everywhere if I am not careful. too much to do! too much to do! Thanks for the compliment! I like it too!

  3. NaNoWriMo is always a great challenge and 750words is amazing as well. But what I’d encourage you to do is write when you are moved to write. It doesn’t have to be perfect, it doesn’t even have to make sense right away, just get the words out. Things will get easier πŸ™‚

  4. Good for you for rejoining your writers group. I’ve definitely stalled out on my blogging big time, but I’m trying to force myself to throw stuff up there, even if it’s boring, just to get back in the flow of it.

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