It’s funny how some days I write with abandon in my journal – thoughts pouring, gushing out faster than I can commit them to paper. Then there are days where I don’t write a single thing. It’s the same for my poetry. Some times it just doesn’t stop. It keeps coming and I have to be at the ready to catch it as the words drop out of the air to me. This year has not been a good year for me poetry-wise. Perhaps I’m not channeling to the right frequency. I don’t know. I miss it. Part of me knows it really has more to do with quieting my mind and opening myself to the muses. Maybe I just haven’t been allowing myself that.
My writing scares me at times. I do shy away from it and I know that isn’t a good thing. I know I’ve written about this before. I let life get in the way – constantly. Stuff that comes easy to me like writing press releases, media alerts, speeches, newsletters – all that is effortless for me. It’s the longer forms of writing – actual story writing and world building I think I suck at. I keep coming back to the word “focus.” I lack focus – long-term focus.
Well, I do feel like I made a step in the right direction this week. I rejoined my former writing group, Dreaming In Ink. I’ve missed them. And I do know that since I quit, something has been missing from my life. I sort of fell down a deep well of darkness – creatively. Things haven’t been the same.
And with NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) just around the corner, maybe I can sit down and force myself to focus. I did it in 2008 and got my 50,000 words in. I know I can do it. I just need to keep doing it! We shall see.
Happy Weekend! 🙂