I haven’t been very “deep” on here lately. It’s funny when you look back over the last few years of your life – as in the last four or five and realize that even though there hasn’t been drastic change, there has been gradual, continual shifts and phases. Some of which I like and some I don’t.
My focus this year is way off key in some respects. Off key in that my self-imposed deadlines and objectives have not panned out as I had planned. Things I planned to accomplish have taken far longer than I anticipated. My writing is still non-existent. I vowed I would not write or work on my stories until I finished my friend’s website. Well, last week I finally finished it. I still have some tweaking to do, but it is up and running which was the main objective. And yes, I am thrilled with that! I am! 🙂 I’m just frustrated with myself that it took so long to complete.
So now, now is the time to get back to my writing. The thing is that right now, I feel like the scarecrow in The Wizard of Oz with all my stuffing falling out all over the place and here’s me trying to gather it all back up and shove it back into the appropriate places. Every time I bend over to pick up a piece or two, another piece falls out. It’s never-ending. That’s how this year feels so far.
Then there are my kettlebells. I hurt my shoulder back in April and have not been able to swing the kettlebell since then without considerable pain afterward. I tried for ten minutes one day back in June but the pain came back worse than ever. My friend (and “twin”), who is a licensed massage therapist and certified structural therapist worked, on it and that has helped tremendously. I’m resting it a bit longer and hopefully soon I’ll be able to get back to swinging. I miss it.
The biggest thing right now is that I need to figure out how to control my day rather than the other way around.
Once I get that straightened out, maybe, just maybe things will turn around and all this stuffing will stay in place…