Am I the Block to the Writer Within?

It’s seven days into National Novel Writing Month otherwise known as “NaNoWriMo”. I’m just over 10,000 words and I’m hitting a wall. I’m not into the story. I’m ready to start anew with something else but I know I should press on.

I think it has more to do with me being overtired than anything else. It doesn’t help. It’s frustrating and I’m not sure when I’ll be catching up on sleep. It either happens or it doesn’t. Not good for the creative juices.

Some days the writing process has you flying like the wind. The word count piles up like the dial on the mileage indicator on a fast moving car. And then all at once, the sputtering begins. The writing slows to a crawl and you find you are about to run out of creative gas. You come to a complete and dreadful stop. Not what you had planned. You realized you have know clue where to go next with your story – at least not at this precise moment. So you decide to back away, get a change of scenery, breathe in some fresh air and pray to  your muses for help – for some creative gas to get you up and running once again.

That’s where I am right now.

A part of me fears that I am a writer with no concept of plot or story. If it’s an essay, a poem, a story for broadcast news (radio or television) or print, ad copy, a newsletter, a speech – I’m your girl. I can write it. It comes easily to me. But writing a story is much harder than anything I can imagine. Perhaps I’m not meant to write a book? I don’t know. I won’t know if I don’t try. I’m not a quitter. I never have been. But I have to ask myself at times, am I the block to the writer within?

I don’t know.

Anyone else ever feel this way? Or is it just me?

*shrugs and smiles*

Time to crack open Scrivener and get back to work. I’ve got a story to write. 🙂

0 thoughts on “Am I the Block to the Writer Within?

  1. It took me 20 years to finish Assassin’s. If the way you’re writing isn’t working, it’s time to try a different method until you find what works. Then you have to shove past the “hard part”, whether it’s the loss of interest int he story or the “hate phase” I go through when revising.

    You can do this. You just have to decide you can and not let anything stop you. Once you find the method that works for you. 😉

    • Somehow I knew you would reply to this, Domy. You are right. It’s dang easy to get frustrated. Time to try a new method for sure. 🙂 Thanks!

  2. NO you are not the only one. I have often wondered if I can only write with clear direction (a paper for school, a blog post for work) and in short increments. I have all these big ideas bouncing around in my head and I’m sometimes too afraid to sit down and try to do something with them. When I do, I literally feel like something is choking me. I’m working on getting past that … slowly. That’s why I’m really looking forward to #reverb … I feel like I need something to get my juices going. Only a month or so to go! 🙂

    • You’re right! I feel like there’s a huge dam in my brain whenever I sit down to write. I have all these ideas but the minute I go to put them down, they freeze up on me. So frustrating.

  3. I would be shocked if I had a book in me, even though I blog (sometimes!! I’ve been horrible at that too) and I write for work. It’s not just you. 10K words is amazing!!

  4. I believe you have a book in you, because you try and because you write. 10K isn’t nothing.

    I know nanowrimo works for a lot of people, but many more people write very successful books and don’t hew to this sort of time structure. I myself could never do it (and the gaming nature of the month doesn’t work for me, either :P). Definitely don’t discount the notion of a book just because you’re running into a wall right now. It’s an odd time of year to take on fifty thousand words in a month. And you have been so tired lately, and that absolutely doesn’t help.

    You may be running into structure problems with moving your scenes along. This happens to me a lot when I haven’t planned properly and then I wind up stumped. If that’s the case, LMK and I will email you a list of craft books that help me to get past walls. In the meantime, try to do some things that fill your personal well (as in don’t let the well get dry). Make time for some music, some artwork, a movie, some reading. This is SO hard for moms to do, I know, but it will make a world of difference.

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