For the first time in a long while, I feel tinglingly alive. Is tinglingly a word? Oh who cares? It describes how I feel!
So why do I feel tinglingly alive, you ask? Hmmm…well for one thing, I’m working out again. Yes, that makes a huge difference in my life. The last – well most of 2010 – I stopped working out. Which might explain why I gained ten flipping pounds. Not that that is all I need to lose, mind you, but still it was ten pounds I have been keeping off as I worked my way downwards. I think that not working out, coupled with my depression that I felt most of 2010, had a huge impact on my weight-gain. Eating wise, I am not one to pig out or eat a lot sweets. We eat pretty healthy and I do watch my calories, but unless I am working out in addition to eating right, I can forget it.
The funny thing is that I enjoy working out. I enjoy running and weightlifting but last year, I hit a point where I just did. not. care. My fire – my enthusiasm was cold. I don’t think I realized how BAD I looked (in my eyes) until I took the annual family picture in front of the Christmas tree and compared it to the picture I took in 2009. That ten pounds made a big difference. Big difference.
Now, don’t get me wrong, please don’t think this post is aimed critically at anyone but me. I have no desire to be a waif. I will never be ultra thin and I don’t want to be. I want to be healthy and fit. I know that of which I am capable. I really let myself down and I am working to correct this.
I bought some kettlebells last weekend and am working out with them every other day. So far, I love them. They really do give you an all-body workout. The key is proper technique and that is what I am working on. Also doing treadmill and then will incorporate my regular weight-training to my week soon. My energy levels are increasing once more and I lost two pounds since last week, so that is good.
Why am I posting about this? Because I am trying to get my head on straight again. I am using the month of January to right my ship and get back on course. Will I have bad days? I’m sure I will as who can predict the future? But the key is to set myself up so that when the bad days hit, I can handle them…hopefully better than I handled them last year. LOL. Next up is getting back into my writing and back to my writing group. I am on “leave” for a bit – since before Christmas BUT I feel the flames in the pit of my soul beginning to lick hungrily at me – seeking fuel for the creative fire!! I’m getting there. Yes. I am.