December 17 – Lesson Learned
What was the best thing you learned about yourself this past year? And how will you apply that lesson going forward?
(Author: Tara Weaver)
I like the color brown. Not quite sure when that happened, but I do. I’ve always “liked” the color but this year, I actually bought things that were brown on purpose without realizing it. Okay, okay, I know that doesn’t make sense. How can you buy brown on purpose without realizing it? I mean, I wasn’t asleep when I made the purchase, right? One would hope not. Otherwise, would that make me a sleep-shopper? <<shakes head to stop the rattling>> What I mean is that I bought the item because I liked it but I didn’t realize how much brown I was gravitating towards until I got home and noticed that a lot of my items – clothing, new glasses, my Sherpani bag, etc… were all, you guessed it – brown. Usually my color is green. I love all things virescent and people who know me just sort of expect me to always go for the green item. I shocked a few people this year with my sudden foray elsewhere!
Alright, so the fact that I like the color brown wasn’t the best thing I learned about myself, but in a way, yes it was. Boy, I’m going for the contradictions today, aren’t I? <<head hits desk>> It meant that I started stepping outside my comfort zone in some areas of my life. I bought glasses that are radically different from my normal style of frames. I went for bold (bold for me). I took more initiative when it came to getting and doing things for myself. I started asking myself, who are you and coming up with some answers to that question. I am nowhere near being ready to hatch. I’m still in the incubation stage. Granted these are small steps, but they are steps nonetheless. I’m the “toe-in-the-water type of girl”. Dip toe in first, then a little further, next the foot, then the ankle… you get the picture. I am NOT a “dive-head-first type of girl” by any means. I never have been.
Going forward, I need to continue growing beyond my comfort zone. I need to be willing to branch out even when I feel like retreating to the safety of my home. I need to move beyond those feelings of insecurity, doubt, anxiety and just put myself out there. I used to be more active – more social – but somewhere along the way I started hibernating and it has become way too easy. Of course, it is one thing to say these things–to realize these things and quite another to actually put them into motion. Sometimes when we are being reflective and putting things down on paper, things we plan to do and know we should do make sense in theory but it’s the, as Captain Picard would say, “make it so” part that takes work.
So my challenge, my focus, my plan for 2011 is to “MAKE IT SO” – again and again and again and so I shall.