December 13 – Action
When it comes to aspirations, it’s not about ideas. It’s about making ideas happen. What’s your next step?
(Author: Scott Belsky)
The definition of aspiration, according to Oxford Dictionaries Online:
1 (usually aspirations) a hope or ambition of achieving something:
the needs and aspirations of the people
What is my hope or ambition of achieving something(s)?
The funny thing is that I’ve always been able to achieve something I have been aspiring to. If I set my mind to it, it happens. It’s always been that way for me. I can’t really explain it, it’s just something I have always been able to do. Maybe it is because I never expect NOT to achieve something. I just KNOW it will.
That can be good thing and it can also be bad.
My problem is that with it comes a fear of success. I know what I wanted to be and do from an early age and I really thought that was the path I would take. There was little doubt in my mind that I would achieve what I set out to do. But things change, life gets in the way. Suddenly, I stopped believing in myself. Doubt crept in and set up shop. And there it resides. Still.
There are some things I grab “by the horns” and make happen – quite effortlessly. Then there are other things that I tend to procrastinate about, stew about – contemplating rather than activating, dreaming rather than actualizing. I’m not sure why. It’s frustrating and like everything else, I really have only myself to blame.
Can I change this? Yes. Nothing is completely immutable. It’s more a question of do I want things to change or am I satisfied/comfortable with the status quo? The answer more often than not is that I am comfortable with the status quo. And that too can be good or bad. Too often it lends itself to complacency which is where I think I am at this time of my life.
Don’t get me wrong. I have many goals and aspirations. Some I could most definitely pursue right here and now – such as my freelance writing business which I already have but neglect due to lack of self-confidence, the podcast I have been eager to get off the ground, or my online newspaper I would LOVE to start, etc… I keep stopping myself at the door and prevent myself from walking in. Then there are long-term goals that will have to wait until our kids are older. Yes, I have only one child right now but I would like one more. Someday I want to go back to school and get my Masters and perhaps a Ph.D. as that is important to me. I miss the university, where intellectual stimulation is constant and satisfying. I hunger for it.
There are so many, many things I want to do, goals I have in mind that I will get to someday. The possibilities are endless – truly. I know deep in my heart I will be published someday. I know that once I actually sit down, get my mind right, ignore self-doubt and just do it, I can make things happen. That is what I will focus on. The ideas are alive and well. Now I just need to give them legs with which to walk.